:: Walking in Destiny ::: January 2005

Sunday, January 30, 2005

ok here's the upright one..

Friday, January 28, 2005

It's the weekends...

Hmmm..

just came back from holland village. Had dinner with my jc friends... We were just catching up with each other at fosters... That place gives a really nice and romatic feeling.. Abit out of place for five loud girls.. haha.. But anyway.. everytime when i have gatherings with my jc classmates.. I always come home feeling heavy...Don't know why? Time seems to have just flew by.. Everyone is so grown up now. Personally i still feel very young, i kind of don't wanna grow up. Funny but true.. Now we talk about things like getting married and having kids.. oh man.. i feel so old. Wonder when will i get married... sigh....I don't wanna grow up.. maybe you can say i don't like things to be different. i miss those good old days in JC.. Guess i'm just too sentimental..

I'm listening to this song now that my friend send me.. it's true by Ryan Cabrera... man it's so nice.. I think it's really meaningful and though this song is new.. it brings back lots of memories don't know why... just makes me think about the past... this song just makes me emotional... maybe i should stop listening.. hehe...

Today is the last day of my fast, really hope that even after this fast i'll still be discipline to spend more time with God. Really let prayer be part of my lifestyle..Pls pray along with me k? Hmmm.. i'm really tired now.. guess i'll go rest now.. tata for now....

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

God is indeed so good...

Alright... I have so much to share now.. I'm just so overwhelmed by God's love and God's mercy... and how God works. I can't believe that anyone can say that our God is not real..
Over the weekend till now God has been speaking to me, encouraging me and really been there for me. Over the weekend it was really a time where i really come to know that God is in control. God has revealed to me so clearly that He is in control. Often in times, we start to doubt whether God is really there but i can surely say that He is and will always be.

On sat, my parents were quarelling and not talking to each other. My mom was really behaving weirdly and i was really upset and lost and i didn't know what to do. I was crying to myself in the morning and i just didn't know where i should go from there. My mom was out alone, with no one (my mom has never done that, and she doesn't know how to take a bus nor take the train.) i started panicking when i couldnt get her. Finally i found out that she is in town alone. I couldn't be there for her as i found my first tuition job and i had to be there and i have ushering duty on sat. I was thinking whether i should go down to church. Suddenly, one of my church friend msg me and ask me whether i'm going to church. so i started sharing with her what happened.. so that was it.. In the end i decided to just go down and do my duty than leave to be with my family. When i saw my friend in church, she prayed for me and i started to share more with her. God was so great that He brought her attention to an area of my life that i have been pretty much concern with. I was sharing with her that the more i serve God and the more i wanna get closer to God, the more things will happen in my family and i'm really very frustrated. Than she told me that God has spoken to her to encourage me in this area while she was praying for me that afternoon. Amazed!!! i was so amazed at how God works and how God is in control of my life..... Praise the Lord...

Today... was another challenging day for me.. My leader in school has challenged me to take up the role of leadership in school (ST). I was really afraid and indecisive as i really don't know whether i can cope. Furthermore, i wanted to serve more intensively in church, so i was quite confuse while they were sharing with me. I told them i would pray about it but at the same time afraid that i won't hear from God. But God is awesome... and i really mean AWESOME!!! while i was doing my quiet time in school after dinner today, God brought me to the passage. Mathew 25.. It talks about the master giving his servant different amount of talents and how the one with one talent hid it and how the master throws him out after that. The engage material has a prayer written that goes like this" Give us the sensitivity to the needs of those about us. and the willingness to invest ourselves on them for Your sake." That struck me. If i serve i wouldn't be doing it for myself, it would be for God and really reaching out to those who have not heard about Jesus. And in mathew 25:23 it says: "“His master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!" God wants to share His happiness with me.. Oh how wonderful that i can co labour with God. How previledge that the almighty God wants to share His happiness with me..
Overwhelmed..... amazed and in awe.......
I love God..... and i know God loves me and each and everyone of you who's reading this. God is indeed a real and loving God. For those who are interested to find out more about this God I'm talking about, feel free to drop by a msg k??
Back to studying... tata....

Friday, January 21, 2005

Filled with the joy of the Lord!

ok...

this time i'll really remember to save before i post it.. hehe.. Well.. today's a public holiday and i'm stoning at home now..Had dance practice with my cell group members this afternoon.. Since then i had been staying home watching tv shows.. hehe..

Just realise the blog that was in error when i send it is posted.. haha.. Praise the Lord... Hmmm... it's after my fasting time now.. Suppose to eat dinner with my dad but he's still doing stuff.. i'm starving.. hehe..

Basically today's a good rest for me.. yesterday after jogging in school i was studying at the sports complex for the entire afternoon with phoebe and we finished 3 tutorials.. impressive right?? hehe.. guess exercising is good for our brains... Like what phoebe says, it helps us to be more confident.. we should all start exercising.. =) Well... today is slacking day for me compared to yesterday. Decided to take the day off.. Everything feels so in control, though i feel as though i've not been controlling. Guess i must really say that placing everything in God's hand is the best way!!

Anyway, i found a tuition kid.. hehe. so happy.. at first i was so worried that i can't get a tuition kid.. i kept panicking and all.. but our God is a faithful God... He indeed provides.. I'm so HAPPY!!!! don't need to take money from my dad anymore.. hehe.. This period of "bankruptcy" really taught me the importance to save and to really treasure what we have. I use to love spending money.. hehe.. now things have changed.. (phoebe aren't you proud of me.. hehe..)

Alright.. i better go.. go get my dad to hurry up...i'll blog again..
Ja....

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Finally it's time to rest...

Well this whole week is reallly hectic, I've been busy with school work, prayer meetings, discipleship meetings, printing notes, exercising (yup i've been jogging and playing tennis in school=) So many others that i don't think i feel like listing them down.

This week campus crusade has embark on a 12 days prayer and fast (engage). i've been praying and fasting lunch since monday. At first i was afraid of getting gastric pain as i have the tendency of getting it, but God is good!!By God's grace, i didn't get any.. hehe.. Think God has really discipline me through this prayer and fast. This sem has started well for me, though i have so many things to do and have lectures early in the morning at 8 am, i still manage to finish what i wanna do.Through this prayer and fast, i've learned to be more prayerful and really depend on God for everything which also means surrendering all aspects of my life to God.

I was memorising this verse this afternoon, " Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God,which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus." Phil 4:6 That's when i truly understand the importance of memorising the word of God. Through this prayer and fast not only have i gain spiritually, i've also starting to adopt a heathly lifestyle by having breakfast.. hehe.. Usually i skip breakfast and have really irregular meals..

Today i was studying at arts forum, reading my business modules readings alone and after that i decided to walk to the aye bus stop(those who know nus, most prob you'll think i'm insane..haha). Anyway, today's weather is really good, it was breezy, and not so sunny... and as i was walking, i really started to be amazed by God's creation. I felt so peaceful and so serene. (haha..) Everything was so beautiful.. Sometimes life is so busy that we seldom pause and look around to admire and appreciate the creations of God.

Hmmm.. i'm starting to yawnz again... i better get back to do my work and sleep by 10 today.. super tired and i'm starting to have panda eyes...... Oh no..... haha.

Alrightz ppl... will blog soon... tata....

Sunday, January 16, 2005

After Supper... hehe..

Hey ya to all..

Just came back from supper with my meta friends... Went to eat nasi lemak at Boon lay.. hehe.. Well.. basically i didn't do much today.. stayed home the entire day.. Was trying to come out with prayer pointers for the crusade prayer calender. At first i was quite lost... but after talking to my leader and having him prayed for me.. things went on smoothly... So happy!! =) Anyway... One week of school is gone and yup... really thank God that i'm adapting well... still need more adapting, but so far so good.. =)

Hmmm...the other day i was just stoning and thinking about life.. I suddenly felt the sense of urgency in this world to spread the gospel. I felt that it is a very crucial period of time where Christians need to rise up and start to share... Never have i felt such urgency... Guess, life this sem will be different as there will be a different focus in my life. But I pray that even in the midst of all these i will still be able to balance my school work.

Let's all start to obey God and do things according to His will by praying for our non Christians friends and family members and take the initiative to share with them.. Grab hold of this chinese new year to share with friends and family!!!!!

For those out there who have yet know the Jesus.. Feel free to leave any comments in my blog k? Ever wonder why I'm so passionate about Jesus... Ever wonder why we're on this earth for?? and ever wonder where we will go after we die?? If these things are bothering you or interest you... Drop by a msg k??

ok.. i'm seriously tired now... Hope that i've bring across whatever i wanna say clearly.. haha.. hope i'm not blabbing... hehe.. Nites everyone.... =)

Oyasumi....

My family and I at the Christmas parade.. I'm the inn keeper this time.. haha...that's my mom and dad on the right,god parents on my left and my cousin and neice on the extreme right.. hehe...

Kangaroos!!!! hehe...

In the train... hehe...

Phoebe and I in the zoo last sem after our exams... I know it's abit out dated but i just got the cable to my Digi cam.. haha...

Friday, January 14, 2005

It's finally friday...

Phew...
it's finally friday and i finally can wake up after the sun rise.. Well.. i have lessons at 8 am on mon, wed thurs and 9-12 on tues... This week is really tiring for me, still trying to adjust my biological clock. But God is good.. His strength is really sufficient or i should say more than enough for me to hang on and do my best! This year, i really started school with God as my first pirioty and I must say that life with God in control is so much better than myself taking control. Spending time with God every day is my new year's resolution...I love talking to God.
Well,so far school has been good. I've been attending all my lectures on time. Besides school i had a few crusade activities too.. I had a crusade BBq yesterday.. i was late cos my school ended at 8pm, nevertheless i had fun fellowshiping with the science crusaders...
Alright... i go read and revise my lecture notes... Got to be consistent cos our studies is for the glory of GOD!!!
Ja...(bye..)

Monday, January 10, 2005

First day of school and God has answered my prayer!!!

Well.. today's the first day of school and I'm super tired. Had lecture from 6 to 8pm and it's really tiring. Anyway, sch is just sch.. nothing much. But today i'm super happy because... I've been worry about not having any tuition kids.. and i was praying very hard for it for the past few days.. and guess what?? When i open up my email today, I saw a tuition assignment for me!! Well.. it's not confirm that i've got it.. But i'm really happy nevertheles.. God is indeed in control and i'll be able to have my pocket money back and not worry about having no money to eat.. haha... (guess my last resort will be my parents but... hehe..last resort as i've mention..) Anyway.. those who are reading... (esp my disciples.. hehe) pray that i'll get the assignment k? cos it's really impt to me.. and the places are pretty near my place.. so pray together with me..
Alright.. I'm seriously tired.. gonna spend time with God than hit my comfortable bed.. nites!!!!!

Sunday, January 09, 2005

God is awesome and my God is a good God..

Today i went for service...

Wasn't feeling well so i went for third service today.. Think it wasn't the sermon that touched me but it was the worship.

The presence of God was so strong that i broke down in tears. The whole concregation was down on their knees.. And the pastor was just asking us to pour out our anxieties to God and our burdens at the feet of Jesus. I suddenly felt that God was speaking to me. Remember in the previous entry i said i was half excited and half afraid. Guess God was telling me to let it all go and assuring me that He is indeed in control. I was so glad I went for service today.

Guess another thing that was going through my mind was the importance for Christians, as children of God to go to church and listen to the word of God. Just feel that God is always there to touch us, to speak to us... but the question is.. are we there and giving Him the chance to speak to us... I felt guilty as my mind was filled with thoughts.. Often I was so clouded by my own worries and emotions that i didn't let God in.. But God is good.. He is always there waiting...

Tomorrow is the first day of school and I'm excited... Can't wait to do well an glorify God.. Can't wait to see God performing miracles in sch..

As i watch the news recently on tv... I pondered and wondered why God has to inflict so much suffering on these ppl. My heart went out to them and i started wondering how i can help... but what really bothered me was why.. why did God allow such disaster to occur. Today God sort of answered my question. In service my pastor was saying.. If there is no suffering, how will we ever know that our God is good.. everything will be meaningless...Think about it..

Many will again start to question other "whys"... But all i can say now is only God knows... and God is in control... and i believe that is all that matters...

Alright... i better get to prepare for school!!!!!!!

Friends out there.. pray for me yah...

1) Pray that God will be my focus though sch is hectic..

2) Pray that I'll be an instrument use by God to reach out to the lost souls

3) Pray that I'll be able to lead my disciples well

(by the way,I Love you gals..i really do.. *muacks*)

tata.....

mata ne.....

me as Mary..(at orchard) haha...

Saturday, January 08, 2005

School's starting..

hello... Konichiwa..

hmmm.. school's starting soon.. I'm half excited yet half afraid. Well.. last sem result wasn't as good as the few 2 sems but i thank God that i maintained it at 4. This sem i'm quite determine to pull up my cap score and I'm determine to start off the year with God in control. I really hope that God will be my focus!

Well...today i was stuck at home the entire day.. Was sick... sigh.. felt horrible... Wanted to go for cell and young adult service but my cramps were so bad that i can't make it... sigh... But tomorrow i'm going for adult and i have dance practice tomorrow.. so exciting.. hehe..

Anyway.. those who are still reading my blog pls drop by my tag board and say hi k?

(Oh to ash.. if you need the phone back i can return you the nokia phone.. drop by a msg k?)

Ja mata.....

Monday, January 03, 2005

Happy New Year!!

Heya to all...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! It's 2005 already... Well.. it's early in the morning and I'm bidding for modules.. haha.. so boring.. well.. it's really a time to update..
Holidays is coming to an end and i guess i didn't really do much...

I went for meta camp which is totally incredible, the experience with God was really undescribable. God really transform lifes. It's really amazing....I built many beautiful friendship with a few people and my cg simply rock. We came as a bunch of strangers but guess because we all have a common goal, that is to glorify God, we simply are able to click and open up to each other during sharing...During the camp i also learn the realiablity of the bible.. I use to sometimes doubt how true the bible is.. but after the seminar in church i really believe that the bible is true. It's a history book inspired by God sia...

Other than the camp, I helped out with the Christmas in orchard. Was standing outside taka acting different characters of the bible. That was realy fun but hard work too... It was really fun to play with many kids and explain to them what Christmas really means...It was heartwarming too to see parent bring up their child and excitedly show them who Jesus is.. and also having Christians coming up to encourage us. I really felt the unity of christians at that point of time. We are really one big family of Christ! I think the most touching thing was having Christians from all walks of life coming up to us to share their little testimonies. Some were ex convicts and Roman catholics but they all have their little story to share how Jesus has transform their lifes.

Hmmm.... what else did i do... Oh.. i helped out in my church charity carwash. It's for the residents of Bt Batok. Helping out the needy ppl there. It was so fun!! Didn't know washing car can by so fun... haha....
Well.. besides all these my whole holiday is basically staying home or out in orchard shopping and catching up with friends.

Anyway.... I'm looking for tuition kids to teach.. Secondary Math.. So PLS... if anyone has any lobang.. pls tell me k? I'm desperate to teach.... Thanks!!! just tag in my tag board k?

tata...

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