Thursday, November 30, 2006

Not Feeling Well
Why do people fall sick?
Why am I always the one falling sick???
Sigh....

posted by SeReNe @ 1:48 pm Comments: 1

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Ever since I started working, my spiritual walk with God has as though entered a storm. I feel like I am being tossed and turned, crushed and persecuted from all sides. Disappointments after disappointments for fellow siblings in Christ just keep happening.

Recently, this issue of self-worth keeps haunting me too. Everyone at my work place seems to be so smart. They seem to be so 'successful' in life. Non-believers seem to have ample time to do the things that they want and still have time to rest and relax. I started to wonder, life is a little unfair. Somehow my service and commitment to God seems so insignificant and unrecognized at work. Is my service and commitment to God worth it?

I started to question whether I am at the right place. Is this really God's will for me? I came to a point where I refuse to converse with God. Even if I did, I think it's just one sided, just me to God. I was angry, in fact bitter about my life...

However, it is also through all these that I learn what it meant to live a life fully dependant on God. That in all things that happen, good or bad, I learnt to trust God for Romans 8:28 says: “And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose."

I am reminded once again that mankind is sinful, just like what Romans 3:10 says "As it is written: "There is no one righteous, not even one." God's faithfulness and trustworthiness started to surface. God is the only perfect one around and only in Him I can fully place my trust.
Though I still feel crushed and persecuted from all sides, but I know that I have an ever faithful God holding on to me. He comforts me when I am down, helps me when I am in trouble. He will see me through every season of my life, bringing me from glory to glory. And no matter where my final destination is, I will hang on to Him and not let go. My heart cries out to him every second to hang on to me and not to give up on me. I believe my God is a god who is still faithful even when I am faithless.


posted by SeReNe @ 10:46 am Comments: 0