:: Walking in Destiny ::: October 2004

Ok this is the emo me.. haha.. oh.. my new hairstyle!! haha... Anyway this is Genki in nus..

Thanking God...and pressing on...

Just came home from sch and i haven't even bathe.. but well very excited to blog so just do it! hehe.. well.. today i had prayer and praise LM in sch today.. and yah it was awesome.. Jus wanna share something with you guys.. (ppl in lm would have heard this)
During Lm today we were singing this song call I could sing of your love forever.. and suddenly my jc days flashed back into my mind.. I was reminded of how i studied with my friends in the library and yah.. how we went thru A levels together..But i think most importantly... I was reminded that how great God is to bring me to ACJc, though it wasn't where i really want to be.. God really has a purpose for everything and i thank God for giving me this previledge to come to know Him..
Jus wanna share with you all this quote that i read from this book call "Growing deep inGod" by Edmund Chan. It says...

"Obedience as an event is often easier than obedience as a process.

To go forth the firs time we are called is easire than to keep going forth"

Sounds profound? hehe.. but it's actually not.. It's really true that at times when God ask us to obey him in certain area of our lifes... at the start we maybe eager and happy to change and obey but as time goes by.. we seem to have forgotten everything.. So let us be reminded that we have to continue to press on in every step of our lives for the glory of God!

Hehe... my cute disciples....(and of course cute me too..)okok.. don't puke.. there's one more though but not here.. ESTHER where are you?? hehe..

Hello hello...

hmmm.. alright..
it's been a few days since i really blog...Well..these few days has been pretty much the same.. studying and trying to catch up with school work. Finally daunt on me that exams really really near... sigh... This afternoon was at the crusade corner and one of the freshmen was crying.. Guess, everyone is really stress. But as i was sharing with her and trying to console her.. in the midst of reminding her that God is in control.. God was actually reassuring me too! Really thank God...
Hmmm.. i'm going to do my C programming practical agian... sigh.. don't know whether i can do it.. but i'll try.. at least i'm not copying them. so i'm really happy with myself.. hehe..
okok.. i'll blog again.. actually have alot to share abt the prayer book i've been reading.. but guess i'll do it another day.. take care folks...

hehe.. me trying to shan away from the camera.. so funny...

Phoebe and I in the canteen.... Don' tknow why but i'm into taking pictures nowadays.. haha..

haha... crazy phoebe and I taking picture of my tutor during tutorial class.. Well.. funny things ppl will do when they're bored and too stress!!! hehe... =) (hope he doesn't see this..)

A glimpse of how my tutorial solutions look like.. hehe.. this is wat i call math....

haha.. this is how messy my table is..

Feel like crap today.... sigh...

Don't know why but i feel like crap today.. not feel like crapping.. but feel like crap!!!!!!!
sigh.....

Crapping.. haha..

Hmmm.. well.. realise that i've not been posting anything about myself... but come to think of it. my life revolves God.. hehe..
Now i'm just sitting at crusade corner bloggin.. wanna study but think my brain is too saturated to fit in anymore thing. Can't wait for prayer meeting later and LM.. Can't wait to worship the Lord..
Stoning.. stoning... stoning.......

My project group mate and I.. hehe...

Faithful prayers...

hello hello...

well this blog is intented to be typed out on tuesday but hehe.. was too busy to do it. Anyway.. wanna share what happen to me on tuesday.. Phoebe and I wanted to eat western food on tuesday after lecture.. but the stall has not been open for a few days and yah i was telling her, sure don't have one la.. than Phoebe said.. we pray la.. Well at that moment i thought.. "so silly.. how can.. pray now and it'll open meh?" so i told phoebe to stop being funny.. hehe.. When we reach the canteen.. guess what?? The stall is open!! haha.. well that's not what i exactly want to share.. there's a second part of the sharing..

That very night i was doing my quiet time and yah.. i was reading this prayer book and in this book there was a story... it goes like that..

There was once a missionary doctor that was serving in south Africa as a doctor.. One eveing he was helping this lady deliver a baby.. and unfortunately the mother died and left them with a premature baby and a 2 yr old daughter. Well.. in africa there's no incubator for the premature baby and the only way to keep the baby warm is to use hot water bottle.. but that night.. even the last hot water bottle broke and the doctor was devastated.. There's nothing they can do but to jus keep the baby near the fire place at night. He need a hot water bottle.. The next day, the doctor went for a prayer meeting and he was sharing with the ppl abt wat happen. A small little gal came up to him and started praying..
" Dear God, Please provide a hot water bottle for the baby and please provide it this afternoon cos if you provide it tomorrow, the baby will die. And also to let the girl know that you love her,please send a baby doll."
The doctor at that point of time was contemplating whether to say Amen or not. But he did. He was thinking to himself that the only chance to get these things is when his hometown send a parcel to him and the last time he recieve one is 4 yrs ago. That afternoon.. He went back home and saw a big parcel lying near his car. He opened it up and ramage thru the parcel.. he found jerseys and many other things, but suddenly he found a hot water bottle.. The small little gal who said the prayer that morning happen to be there and run excitedly towards him and said," If God can provide the hot water bottle.. he will provide the baby doll too." and sure enough they found a doll....

The book went on to say that God knows our prayer and he will prepare it before hand. So when we pray... let's pray with faith that God will answer it.. But let's bear in mind that God has many ways of answering a prayer.. He can say yes, no or wait.....

My dear JC friends.. i miss you gals so much... Can't wait for everyone to be back in Singapore. Love you gals!!

God's precious child.... =)

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God Disciplines His Sons

1Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.

2Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

3Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.

4In your struggle against sin, you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood.

5And you have forgotten that word of encouragement that addresses you as sons: "My son, do not make light of the Lord's discipline,and do not lose heart when he rebukes you,

6because the Lord disciplines those he loves, and he punishes everyone he accepts as a son.

7Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as sons. For what son is not disciplined by his father?

8If you are not disciplined (and everyone undergoes discipline), then you are illegitimate children and not true sons.

9Moreover, we have all had human fathers who disciplined us and we respected them for it. How much more should we submit to the Father of our spirits and live!

10Our fathers disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in his holiness.

11No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.

12Therefore, strengthen your feeble arms and weak knees.

13"Make level paths for your feet," so that the lame may not be disabled, but rather healed.
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Today, i was just sharing with my friends that God really taught me a good lesson after a hectic and horrible last week. God taught me that i should really rely on him and that i've been relying too much on my own strength.

The above passage was what i read during quiet time today.(Hebrews 11-12)

I was reading chapter 11 and was amazed by the amount of faith that had been place in God. but what struck me the most was chapter 12 verse 5 to 7 and verse 10 to 11 .

When i was reading verse 5 to 7, i couldn't help it but started crying. It says, endure hardship as disciplice; God is treating you as sons. God reminded me that he is putting me thru all these as he is treating me as His child and he wants to strengthen me. What previledge to be treated as God's child!

God is simply too good...

I'm once again amaze by how great God is and how he never fails to give me peace and pick me up when i'm down. In time of desperation, He is indeed always there. Like tea leaves in a tea bag, they will remain dry and bitter if you don't soak them in water. However once you soak them in water, they will give great fragrance and taste. Just like the tea bag, we humans are spiritually dry without God, let's all soak ourselves in the holy spirit, and be a fragrance to Christ!!!!

Phoebe and I !!!!

Wanna know how i look in JC.. haha.. that's young innocent me!

It's not how we start the race... but how we finish the race..

Jus finish LM, now in science canteen studying... hmmm... I really thank God for the friends i have in crusade. Really thank God that in times of need and upsetness, i have friends whom i can share with and they will encourage me. As i was sharing with my friends just now, suddenly i realise that spiritual warefare is so real, the devil is always trying to put us down by putting bad thoughts in our head, telling us that we're not good enough, telling us that we're defeated. Guess we really ought to differentiate the difference between God's voice and the Devil's voice. I've learn that it's not hard to differentiate cos God will never put bad thoughts in our mind.

I was just sharing with my friends how much i wanna crush saturn, how much i detest him. Indeed when we're really close to God, saturn is jealous. So Christians out there, let's perservere together. It's not how we start the race, but it's how we finish the race... let's remember that even in hard pressed times...The bible says...

"You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world. " 1 John 4:4

Though emotionally i'm really down but i know the joy of the Lord is with me. There's actually a difference between joy and happiness... Happiness is affected by external factors but joy comes within you. Let us always be filled with the joy of the Lord no matter what circumstances we are in....

"Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the LORD , I will be joyful in God my Savior. The Sovereign LORD is my strength; he makes my feet like the feet of a deer, he enables me to go on the heights." Habakkuk 3:17 -19

Speechless....

hello hello...
hmmmm.. today seems to be a rollar coaster ride for me.. one moment i feel so high but the next i'm like down to the bottom pit..just went for my cz tutorial, realise that i made a few stupid mistakes for my test yesterday.. feel really lousy abt it.. argh.. it's like i know i've tried my best at that moment, but somehow it never seems enough.
I'll just try not to focus on that now..(well at least i got A+ for my previous practical.) Just realise that sometimes we focus too much on the bad rather than the good...

Yesterday's bible study was good, the combined Dg was wonderful. I love having bible study, cos i get to learn more about God and how great God is. It like everytime after i study the word of God or pray or worship or after service, i'll always feel very joyful. so really looking forward to prayer meeting and Lm later... can't wait to feel God and experience him. alright.. better get back to studying.. i only have half an hour more before prayer meeting starts....

1 and an 1/2 hour before my CZ paper...

Hmmm....

check my results for my test yesterday.. Didn't do as well as i expected. Was really disappointed...but yah i was reading my friend's blog today and she said this...

"But now, i've learnt to take things esp my studies easy. God was speaking to me once "If i've done and studied my best, it's alright. Studies is not everything and never will be." The bible says in Him, we have our being and we live and do everything. It's not in our studies that we find our identity, but really, by wat God says. "

(sorry pheepbs for cutting and pasting what you said.... hehe hope you don't mind..=) )

Well... after reading this i was really encouraged. Ok.. phoebe's in front of me now. yup she said she don't mind me cutting and pasting her stuff.. hehe...

Today i'm goning to have DG with my disciples. Very excited... can't wait to see them and share with them and hear from them. Really thank God for blessing me with such a great Dg group. Hey gals if you're looking at this, I love you all and I really thank God for each and everyone of you. okok.. better get back to studying.. tata....

One down... 2 more to go...

well well....

realise that some of you have ask me to add a tag board.. but the thing is I DON'T KNOW HOW!!! hehe... can someone leave a comment and teach me? thanks..

Today is my first test, just finished it... last night was challenging man. Didn't really get to study much yesterday. I came to school at 9am for consultation for my programming, had tutorial at 11 and ended school at 2, had make up bible study at 2 to 4, check out from 4 to 5 and bible study again at 530 to 800. Actually, in the midst of all my programs, i keep asking myself why am i not studying for my test tomorrow. Maybe i shouldn't go for bible study, but really thank God that i went and i really learn how to depend on God's strength and wisdom. During bible study yesterday. we discuss abt quiet time with God and i've decided to place quite time on high prioity. Pls pray with me that time with God will be fruitful and refreshing.

Tonight i have another paper to study for, it's programming tomorrow! Really need God's wisdom. I'll press on for the glory of God. Hey thank you friends out there who are supporting me in prayer! Love you all...

ARgh......

Starting to start wondering AGAIN why am I in nus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I should be in australia studying what i'm interested in and not math. sigh...... Don't know why i feel so insecure now, though i studied but somehow feel that it's not enough and nothing went in. Getting really paranoid. Is this what they call stress??? Hmmmm... really need to pray. Guess only God understand why i'm going thru all these. Now all i feel like doing is to sit and stone and hopefully everything that i studied will sink into my small brain, hopefully it'll stay...
Maybe i've been too slack this sem, or maybe it's the evil one puttin me down....

Friends out there pls pray for me k?
Pray for the peace of God to be with me.
Pray that i'm able to cope with studies and serving God at the same time.
Pray that in everything i do i'm filled with the Joy of the Lord!

Tat's all for now folks... cao...................................

Job 12:13
But God is the real source of wisdom and strength.

ME again.. haha.

Me!!

God is so GOOD....... =)

I am seriously amazed how much wisdom God can give. Told you guys abt my C programming right? i was just doing my practical for tat. Never believe that i'm able to come out with the program myself, but guess wat? I did!! Tat was definitely not my own wisdom but it comes from God... Amen??

"5If any of you need wisdom, you should ask God, and it will be given to you. God is generous and won't correct you for asking. 6But when you ask for something, you must have faith and not doubt. Anyone who doubts is like an ocean wave tossed around in a storm. 7-8If you are that kind of person, you can't make up your mind, and you surely can't be trusted. So don't expect the Lord to give you anything at all. "
James 1

These are the verses that really help me to study and perservere on when i think tat i'm not smart enough.. God is always there to provide, it's just a matter whether we wanna place our faith and trust in him. ...

It's FRIDaY!!!

Well well...

it's friday and it's a weekend but i'm still studying in school. Sad right? but oh well i have three mid terms next week and yah... one of them is C programming..... Ah... number one most hated module.. but what to do.. still have to do it. I'm sure God will sustain me through this difficult period of time.

Just finish prayer meeting at Genki sushi, it was more like eating than having a meeting. The fellowship was great though. Really thank God that i'm able to serve him, but somehow i just feel that i'm not doing my best and putting in my best effort in serving him.

Alright better get to studying.. again.....

God loves you and me!!!

:: Walking in Destiny ::

Thursday, October 28, 2004

Thanking God...and pressing on...

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

Hello hello...

Sunday, October 24, 2004

Friday, October 22, 2004

Feel like crap today.... sigh...

Thursday, October 21, 2004

Crapping.. haha..

Faithful prayers...

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

Monday, October 18, 2004

God's precious child.... =)

Thursday, October 14, 2004

God is simply too good...

Thursday, October 07, 2004

It's not how we start the race... but how we finish the race..

Speechless....

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

1 and an 1/2 hour before my CZ paper...

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

One down... 2 more to go...

Sunday, October 03, 2004

ARgh......

Saturday, October 02, 2004

God is so GOOD....... =)

Friday, October 01, 2004

It's FRIDaY!!!

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